1. in the dark

    awake at 4:00am
    well, before that really
    with my coughing boy
    snuggling in bed wasn’t helping
    so we headed downstairs together
    me carrying his pillow
    and favorite blanket
    him with his glasses
    and a Calvin and Hobbes book
    he sent me ahead of him
    to chase away the dark
    thankfully my baby boy
    now nine and a half
    fell back to sleep
    in his favorite love seat spot
    while I tucked him in, I spied her
    through the glass doors to the back
    the elusive moon from last night
    a crooked crescent grin
    Blue dog is worried about his boy
    assured him with extra ear rubs
    “It’ll all be OK. No matter what.”

    January 7, 2013

  2. The car I think it’s time to let her go I/we need a safe newer vehicle that we trust outside the city limits on the highway The air is broken and it’s been hot this summer Power locks busted long ago and it’s not worth repair costs Even if we fixed her and parked her until My oldest son was 15 or 16, in three more years I’d worry about her safety And his The air bag light is blinking It’s time It’s just not easy To let her go She’s been my car for 13 1/2 years That’s a long damn time to drive a car She’s been A Good One One of the best My fifth car since I turned sixteen Twenty four and a half years ago Now it’s time to figure out What’s next?! ~ Janean August 6, 2012

    The car
    I think it’s time to let her go
    I/we need a safe newer vehicle that we trust outside the city limits on the highway
    The air is broken and it’s been hot this summer
    Power locks busted long ago and it’s not worth repair costs
    Even if we fixed her and parked her until My oldest son was 15 or 16, in three more years I’d worry about her safety
    And his
    The air bag light is blinking
    It’s time
    It’s just not easy
    To let her go
    She’s been my car for 13 1/2 years
    That’s a long damn time to drive a car
    She’s been A Good One
    One of the best
    My fifth car since I turned sixteen
    Twenty four and a half years ago
    Now it’s time to figure out
    What’s next?!
    ~ Janean

    August 6, 2012

  3. up since 5:00 one cup o’coffee down a bowl of cereal too almost 6:30 now as I laugh and throw the ball for Blue his appointment is at 8:30 that wonderful husband of mine for 15 years and counting 20 years together in July friends before that today we find out if the chemo has worked or if the cancer has spread yet here I am playing with the dog his dog the one he’s always wanted trying to keep the worries and fear at bay until we know what the doctor has to say other than THAT it’s a beautiful morning crisp early a.m. air birdsong from the treetops not much traffic noise less than two hours to go and then we’ll know what’s next June 6, 2012

    up since 5:00
    one cup o’coffee down
    a bowl of cereal too
    almost 6:30 now
    as I laugh and throw the ball for Blue
    his appointment is at 8:30
    that wonderful husband of mine
    for 15 years and counting
    20 years together in July
    friends before that
    today we find out
    if the chemo has worked
    or if the cancer has spread
    yet here I am
    playing with the dog
    his dog
    the one he’s always wanted
    trying to keep the worries and fear at bay
    until we know what the doctor has to say
    other than THAT
    it’s a beautiful morning
    crisp early a.m. air
    birdsong from the treetops
    not much traffic noise
    less than two hours to go
    and then we’ll know
    what’s next

    June 6, 2012

  4. TODAY IS FILLED WITH PRAISES!

     



    TODAY IS FILLED WITH PRAISES!
    Before the doctors came in on rounds,
    it was an especially gorgeous sunrise,
    with bands of color across the horizon.
    Even more spectacular,
    than yesterday’s golden glow.
     
    Good news from The Pathology Report.
    A clear CT scan. 
    Minimal air around the lungs.
    Nothing showed up on the x-ray.
    Going home. 
     
    Staples out today.
    Hemoglobin OK.
    I am crying tears of Joy. 
    Why do we doubt,
    when God is so good?
    He has this under control.
    He’s showing us,
    step by step,
    I have this. 
    Trust Me. 
    But we doubt. 
    We worry. 
    We fret. 
    Well, I do. 
    Even when he gives us the gift
    of a sunrise in vivid hues
    to say, “I Am Here”.
    Thank you, God. 
    It’s your prayers.
    All of them. 
    Each and every one. 
    We are so overwhelmed
    with the power of them,
    as God keeps moving mountains
    from our path. 
    He hears them. 
    He answers. 
    In His time. 
    In His way. 
    God is good. 
    All the time.
    How Great Is Our God!
    Love and thankfulness
    for each of you,
    for walking so closely with us
    on my husband’s journey
    through cancer,
    from diagnosis to survivor,
    is our prayer.
    Friday morning, November 18, 2011
    © 2011 Turquoise Tangles